Music Mix-up Post 8

This week has been absolutely crazy!  People have been sick and I feel like I haven't hardly been home at all - if it isn't one thing, then it's another.... Anyone else have a week like this?  I've been dealing with a lot of inner contemplations and what not.  God has really been digging into my heart and bringing stuff up that I need to deal with.  Ever had the feeling that maybe you aren't as close to God as you used to be and you aren't quite sure how in the world you ended up so far away?  I've been so tired and worn down.... There have been a couple of songs that have just really ministered to me,  I tried to decide between them, but I'm just too tired to pick one, so I'm going to do them both.  The first one is "First Love," by Avalon.



Returning to how I loved God at first is something that He has really been impressing on my heart these past couple of weeks.  How does one go about doing that?  I've been praying and just asking God to relight the fire.  I remember when I first heard how Jesus came to earth to save us, and how God sent His only Son to save us.  I was four, and I just sat, amazed that Someone loved me enough to die for me.  I was overwhelmed and wanted to spend the rest of my life loving Him back.  And yet, here I am, struggling with trusting God and loving Him.  I know what started it, but I can't blame circumstances for my own choices...   The second song is "Something to Say," by Starfield.





There have been times that I honestly don't know what to pray, or what to say, or what to do...  When it's all I can do is just hold on... And I know that God will not let me go.  I just can't let go of Him, which is something that I can be tempted to do.  Holding on to past behaviors is "easier" than facing them and learning new patterns and beliefs.  The unknown can be so scary and intimidating.
   Reading this post makes it sound like my life is horrible, which isn't the truth at all.  But sometimes it's in the lull that God starts digging up, and right now that's just what is going on.  I hope you all have a lovely weekend!
    In His Love,
        Christy

Music Mix-up Post 7

Well, this week seems to have flown by, and it seems to have crawled by at the same time.... Ever had one of those?  You get to the end and say, where did the week go, but during the week, it felt like it would never end?
  Anyway, for whatever reason, I was really missing my brother this week - maybe because some of the dads were harassing me earlier this week, just like my brother... But I turned on the radio, and I thought, maybe they were playing a patriotic song over on the country station, so I switched over there, and this song was playing, and I thought I would share it with all of you this week.  May I present, "An American Soldier," by Toby Keith.




    I know I say this a lot, but this song always makes me want to cry.  I just want to dedicate this blog post to all of you who either are service men or women, or those who are related to them.  Without you, life would not be the same.  Thank you for your sacrifice. 
   I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
      In His Love,
        Christy

Music Mix-up Post 6

I was originally going to do a different song this week - I even had one picked out.  But after last night, I changed my mind. :)  I've been known to do that every now and then.  Last night I was at our church for a children's leaders meeting.  Afterwards, there was an hour of worship.  And it was so cleansing for me, and one of the songs just really spoke to my heart, and I thought I would share it with you today.  So, may I present "You Are For Me," by Kari Jobe.



I have heard this song before, but I'd never really paid attention to the words. But last night, it was like God was speaking to my heart, saying, "I want to write on your heart.  I am your Father, and I love you.  I am faithful. I am trustworthy.  Open your heart once again to me."  And I was so overwhelmed... all I could say was, "I love You, Father," as I wept openly; broken and humbled before my God and Father.  My prayer for you is that, as you listen to this song, you would be open and let Him write on your heart. 
    In HIS Love,
         Christy

Music Mix-up Post 5

Alright, so today is Friday.  I know, I know - this is supposed to go up on Thursday, but life seems to keep getting in between me and my computer. :)  I was listening to the radio the other day, and this song just really spoke to my heart.  It has long been a favorite song of mine.  This week's song is "If You Want Me To," by Ginnie Owens.



I have often thought that this song pairs nicely with Psalm 23, which I have been meditating on lately.  It reminds me that even though I don't see it right now, there is hope for tomorrow.  I'm not who I was, and I'm not who I'm going to be.  But as long as I keep looking to God and trusting Him, and keep walking forward, even when I don't feel like I can, I will grow in His strength.  He is never going to leave me alone.  I don't have to face the uncertainty alone, because my King is by my side.  May this song encourage your heart and turn your focus back to Him when you feel alone.

  In His Love,
      Christy

Winter in my Soul

This past week I had some news that reminded of a previous experience that was painful and hard.  However, I know and believe that God has a plan, and I'm walking forward in His love and grace.  But, with it snowing today and everything being gray again, I remembered a poem that I had written a while ago and I thought I would share it with y'all.

 

Winter In My Soul

 

My dreams lie shattered at my feet,

Mingled with shards of my heart.

I cry till my tears run dry

yet long for more.

It's summer outside,

yet winter in my soul.

 

Heaven is silent for me

I yearn to be free.

I long for spring

but find winter in my soul

 

the ground is frozen beneath my feet,

the sky is hard above my head.

I call your name,

yet my voice echoes back to me.

 

Heaven is silent for me

I yearn to be free.

I long for spring,

but find winter in my soul.

 

How could You let this happen?

Why did you let me go?

Why can't I find you?

Why must Heaven be silent for me?

I long for spring

but find winter in my soul.

 

My heart cries for You, O Lord

I cannot let you go.

I will pound on heaven's door

until winter is gone from my soul.

 

I love You Abba Father

You are never silent to me

I trust You for the spring

while the winter is in my soul.

 

 

    In His Love,

       Christy

 

 

 

Music Mix-up Post 4

I started this blog post yesterday morning.  Yesterday was Thursday, which is the day that I'd like to put this post up.  Yesterday was one of those days that nothing went quite the way I had planned.  Except for the fact that I got up on time.... But I'm choosing to believe that God has a plan and His plan is better than my plan.  But anyway, I remembered at almost midnight last night that I hadn't put the blog post up, and I just decided that I'd do it today.  And now is the first time that I've had a chance to do it.  I had to finish writing a paper for my ASL class.  (Which, by the way, I totally owned. Oh, yes.)
   Since last week I put up a song from Rigoletto, I thought I'd do another song from it again.  So, may I present to you "The Curse," from Rigoletto.


"The Curse," is one of my favorite scenes from that movie.  Bonnie, attracted by Ribaldi's singing, snuck into his living room.  After an exchange of heated words, he sang this song.  His song, if you will.  He had let the "curse" make his heart ugly and hard.  We all have something that happens in our lives that changes it forever.  I really think that this song can be a challenge to us - what are we going to do about it?  Do we let it make us hard, or do we let God's love set us free?
   And then, because I totally love this rendition, I decided to add a little clip where both Bonnie and Ribaldi sing their songs together: a beautiful blend of both "The Melody Within," with "The Curse."



Listening to this sends shivers up and down my spine every time I hear it.... I hope you all enjoy it as much as I do!  I pray you all have a lovely weekend and keep seeking His Love. 

   In His Love,
       Christy

P.S. I'm going to a ball tomorrow.  Pictures coming soon! :)